21Jan06 - My New Life Resolution
G'day my blog,
It has been 7 tormenting weeks & in fact a lot more, since I last posted on you. boy ... that tender ... that damned tender ... it had been such a torment... drained the shit out of me completely. You won't know how badly I want to get my life back again ! Yes, my life, my business, not other people's businesses, but what matters to me most - my life, my family, my unfulfilled aspirations & dreams...
Starting today, I am taking 2 weeks leaves, spanning across CNY, and I won't be back to office until 6/2. Starting today, I want to really use this 2 weeks to recollect the past, and give some serious thoughts about what's next. Most importantly, do I stay on in this company, or do I throw in the letter and bail out ? something I need to seriously ask myself...
By the time I step back into office on the 6/2, I would have a clearly thought out mind on my decision, and the "apparent" options now are,
The big question I need to ask myself - touch my heart and ask myself, what do I really want to do that will make me happy and successful?
I need a mirror, someone that can show me the way. that someone, my "gui-ren", where are you ?
If I am to bail out, do I have the courage to bail out without a fall back plan? would I have my wife's support? Perhaps, the other questions would be why are such things bothering me? HEY ! where was that young and daring soul of yours ??? where has it gone hiding !!!??? find that back !!!
I am calling this post "My New Life Resolution", cos it is really my life that I want to start afresh, not just for this new year, but NOW, from this point on, at this point in my life, do not wait anymore, touch my heart and ask myself deep inside how do I want to live my life for the next 30 years. Do I want to die a regretting old rag or do I want to live the rest of my life a fulfilling one without regrets ? touch my heart...
It has been 7 tormenting weeks & in fact a lot more, since I last posted on you. boy ... that tender ... that damned tender ... it had been such a torment... drained the shit out of me completely. You won't know how badly I want to get my life back again ! Yes, my life, my business, not other people's businesses, but what matters to me most - my life, my family, my unfulfilled aspirations & dreams...
Starting today, I am taking 2 weeks leaves, spanning across CNY, and I won't be back to office until 6/2. Starting today, I want to really use this 2 weeks to recollect the past, and give some serious thoughts about what's next. Most importantly, do I stay on in this company, or do I throw in the letter and bail out ? something I need to seriously ask myself...
By the time I step back into office on the 6/2, I would have a clearly thought out mind on my decision, and the "apparent" options now are,
- stay on as a tsm and face that same arsehole
- move on to do a sdm job in delivery
- or bail out
The big question I need to ask myself - touch my heart and ask myself, what do I really want to do that will make me happy and successful?
I need a mirror, someone that can show me the way. that someone, my "gui-ren", where are you ?
If I am to bail out, do I have the courage to bail out without a fall back plan? would I have my wife's support? Perhaps, the other questions would be why are such things bothering me? HEY ! where was that young and daring soul of yours ??? where has it gone hiding !!!??? find that back !!!
I am calling this post "My New Life Resolution", cos it is really my life that I want to start afresh, not just for this new year, but NOW, from this point on, at this point in my life, do not wait anymore, touch my heart and ask myself deep inside how do I want to live my life for the next 30 years. Do I want to die a regretting old rag or do I want to live the rest of my life a fulfilling one without regrets ? touch my heart...
posted by Son of Boat Quay at 12:10 PM
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