quandary

Definition: A state of difficulty, perplexity, doubt, or uncertainty.

Example: Don . . . told me of the quandary that the authorities were in. Should the ruins be left untouched or should they be reconstructed for a new wave of tourists?


How well quandary describes the state I am in regarding the place that I am staying in now. To A&A or to renovate or to sell or ??? what a state of quandary I am in ...

Buddha Chants & Songs - links

Buddhanet Audio Downloads http://www.buddhanet.net/audio.htm

A chanting session by the community of monks at Wat Luang Phor Sodh Dhammakayaram, Thailand
Chanting Leader: Phra Rajyanvisith, abbot
http://www.concentration.org/b_chants.htm

玉佛禅寺
http://www.yufotemple.com/juequn/jq_fyt_yp.asp

佛音网站
http://www.foyin.com

Dharma-Online
http://www.dharma-online.com/

Buddhist Studies for Primary and Secondary Students (But as relevant to an 80 years old as it would be for a 3 years old)
http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/buddhism/index.htm

般若文海
http://www.bfnn.org
http://bookgb.bfnn.org

http://www.immmusic.com/

http://paginas.terra.com.br/arte/chungtao/

http://tamhaovan.multiply.com/music/item/11

http://www.fraughtwithperil.com/blogs/rbeck/archives/000662.html

http://www.tubf.org/modules/debaser/genre.php?genreid=1

http://www.awarenessplace.com/music/newchant.htm

http://www.buddhist.org.sg/16home_cn.htm

Dharma Resonance: Buddhist Music&Hymns
To Engage, Motivate, Inspire and Touch through music
http://www.dharmaresonance.com/index.htm

21Jan06 - My New Life Resolution

G'day my blog,

It has been 7 tormenting weeks & in fact a lot more, since I last posted on you. boy ... that tender ... that damned tender ... it had been such a torment... drained the shit out of me completely. You won't know how badly I want to get my life back again ! Yes, my life, my business, not other people's businesses, but what matters to me most - my life, my family, my unfulfilled aspirations & dreams...

Starting today, I am taking 2 weeks leaves, spanning across CNY, and I won't be back to office until 6/2. Starting today, I want to really use this 2 weeks to recollect the past, and give some serious thoughts about what's next. Most importantly, do I stay on in this company, or do I throw in the letter and bail out ? something I need to seriously ask myself...

By the time I step back into office on the 6/2, I would have a clearly thought out mind on my decision, and the "apparent" options now are,

• stay on as a tsm and face that same arsehole
• move on to do a sdm job in delivery
• or bail out

Given what had transpired, I don't think I can stay on, and I am really inclined to bail out.

The big question I need to ask myself - touch my heart and ask myself, what do I really want to do that will make me happy and successful?

I need a mirror, someone that can show me the way. that someone, my "gui-ren", where are you ?

If I am to bail out, do I have the courage to bail out without a fall back plan? would I have my wife's support? Perhaps, the other questions would be why are such things bothering me? HEY ! where was that young and daring soul of yours ??? where has it gone hiding !!!??? find that back !!!

I am calling this post "My New Life Resolution", cos it is really my life that I want to start afresh, not just for this new year, but NOW, from this point on, at this point in my life, do not wait anymore, touch my heart and ask myself deep inside how do I want to live my life for the next 30 years. Do I want to die a regretting old rag or do I want to live the rest of my life a fulfilling one without regrets ? touch my heart...

祈愿

请合掌,一起念,

我诚心祈求:

1. 身和敬: 我的行为要端正, 不做非法的事.
2. 口和敬: 说话要客气, 不若事生非, 要清净口业.
3. 意和敬: 与人交往相处要诚恳, 友善.
4. 戒和敬: 我要遵守戒律, 绝不做犯法的事.
5. 见和敬: 我要尊重和接纳别人正确的见解.
6. 利和敬: 誓不損人利己, 争权夺利做危害团体, 人群的事.

我发愿: 誓要牢牢记住佛陀的教诲, 严格约束自己, 宽容待人, 和大家和睦共处, 精进共修, 同上佛道.

南无佛 南无法 南无僧

Born Free

"Man is born free;
and everywhere he is in chains.
One thinks himself the master of others,
and still remains a greater slave than they."

-- Jean Jacques Rousseau

Advanced Open Water @ Pulau Aur

Went for AOW over the weekend of 29-30 Oct. Done it at Pulau Aur with Apache Diver. Done 5 skill dives:
- peak buoyancy performance
- navigation
- night dive
- deep dive
- drift dive

However, find the dives a bit pian-jia... done a few, never perfect the or do more practise to the skills, but move on to leisure dive oredi... find it a bit wasted. I would rather do a few more practises to improve the skills ...

Perhaps it is about time to do some basic equipping such as the mask, snorkel, and fin; and perhaps get a set of long tight shirt to replace the wet suites...

Nevertheless, it was a good getaway. Look forward to more dives in the months ahead.

Where shall we go next ? Redang, Perhentian, Permangil, ... ...

Mosquito in Betta breeding tank * damned *

Lessons learned, folks.

Betta fries are too young to devour the mosquito larvaes. So cover the breeding tank tight.

Mosquito net helps to keep the larvaes from flying away, but it apparently does not prevent female mosquitos from entering to lay eggs.

Lately, I have 3 massive attacks of hatched larvaes waiting to escape the net. scare the shit out of me ! wont want to be a dengue spreader. Spread insecticide to eliminate the mosquitos, but I'm afraid some betta were sacrificed in the process too. * weep *

To betta breeders out there, do note ! don't take the moss lightly. those moss kills ! I mean, literally !