Lost ...

Lost, if I may say. exactly how I'm feeling now. spent a whole life searching and I still dunno where my harbour is.

what exactly am I good at? what would I do that will make me trully a happy person?! how can I not be any the mercy of the monthly pay check? how can I get out of the vicious cycle?

quesions ... tonnes of ...

let's say I'm working in this MNC, a 3 letters company. full of buzz, and full of people who are ignorantly arrogant too. but unfortunately this business unit that I am in is probably a dying trade, commoditise, competitive, low margin, cut throats more often than not, and hard to meet quotas...

ignorantly arrogant --> you encounter bunch of people who does not know the trade and yet act like they know the whole industry, lead you down the wrong path, and commit you to unrewarding task.

there are no focus on this business, everyone kinda frown on our line of business, and no one will put the feet down to say let's close down this business and focus our energy on more lucrative ones. a bunch of "talkers" but no "walkers".

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